From the time I was a child, I was a dreamer. I dreamed about being an important, corporate business woman. I dreamed about being a radio host and actress. I dreamed about being on television. I dreamed about being very successful and living a wonderful life.
As an adult, I’m still a dreamer. My dreams have changed, but I still dream.
Oh and plan. I’m a planner too. Planning things out gives me a sense of control, even though I’ve learned by now that plans are fragile, and they are capable of breaking down and falling out at any moment. You would think that would prevent me from planning big things or even small things, but it doesn’t.
The problem with being a dreamer and a planner is that I’m always looking for the next big thing. Is this something you can identify with? Most dreamers and planners can.
A few days ago, I was doing the dishes and thinking about my future. I was thinking about my upcoming move to Arizona, and was telling myself, “Once I move there, things will get better.”
And a strong voice in my head said, “It’s better now.”
I paused, and let those words sink in.
It’s. Better. Now.
See, I had just gotten out of a toxic relationship. I had been unhappy for years, and I had also felt very trapped. I wanted to get out, but didn’t know how that would happen. I wanted to save my money, but that was hard to do for numerous reasons. There were times when I cried myself to sleep and begged my angels, gods and goddesses to work a miracle and get me out of that situation.
And they did.
It wasn’t easy. In fact, the transformation was one of the hardest things I’ve ever faced in my life. But it got me out of a situation that I was unhappy with, and opened new doors for me so that I could make friends, move to a new state, relaunch my business with a new purpose, and enter a new, loving and fulfilling relationship. A relationship in where I felt safe, trusted, loved and respected. These were all values that had been missing from the previous relationship.
I thought about where I had been, and where I was now.
Sure, I had downsized my life in a big way. I had moved from a very rich, well-to-do area of Southern California to one of the poorest cities in the south. I had moved from a big, two story 2800+ square foot house with a big backyard, into a one bedroom apartment. I had donated and given away a ton of my clothes and belongings, and didn’t have much left in terms of material items.
But you know what?
I was happy. Happier than I’d been in a long time.
After I gave this some though, I felt the tension in my body…tension I didn’t even know I had…release. I felt my mind relax and my heart open.
I smiled to myself, and nodded in agreement with the wise words that my angel had shared with me.
Yes, I fully agree.
It’s better now.
If you suffer from It-Will-Be-Betteritis like I did, then I’d like to invite you to sit down and think about where you are now, and where you have been. Perhaps you will come to the realization that you really are in a bad situation, and that you have some serious changes you need to make.
On the other hand, maybe you’ll realize that you’re in a much better place now. If that’s the case, take time to fully appreciate where you are. Allow those feelings of peace, calmness and gratitude to wash over you.
You can still be excited about where you are going, while you are thankful for where you currently are.